the {FLIP SIDE} of shedding: gratitude

Hello beautiful cultivate.wellness readers -  I am sorry I was MIA last week, I was away doing a Nutrition Presentation in BC, and then catching up on soul work in the forest. I won’t lie; today I do not know what to write about. I have been enveloped these days in soul work and processing soul lessons – you know, just another day of doing the work of evolution. It sure has it’s up’s and down’s, doesn’t it?

These days I have been flirting more with the dark side of grieving and sadness than celebrating gratitude and light. I have come face to face with the reality of growing up and the need to shed what no longer serves me. I think this shedding process is a continuum, as we grow and evolve we will always face the need to let go of what once did serve, and no longer does.

I personally find this process heartbreaking, and really hard.

I have also come face to face with the reminder of the importance of boundaries, and the need to live a life with Self-Love and not the need to seek the approval of others.  This means saying “no” to others and standing up for self. This means being ok with the discomfort of other’s disappointment.

But as the shedding occurs in my life, I see another side emerging in a miraculous and simultaneous way; I see roots in my life diving deeper and developing strong connections with life and with love that I did not know existed. I am learning to love deeper than I ever have. I am learning to trust more than I ever have. I am learning that when I surrender, life breaths for me, life guides me, I am really starting to trust that there actually IS a divine purpose to this existence. I can not quiet explain it.

It’s so easy to get sucked into the pain of life sometimes. But when one emotion hits us, we can be certain that there is always it’s opposite simultaneously showing up. All we have to do is listen, pay attention and choose. Sometimes, this requires us to slow down and feel it all out. Tonight I am overwhelmed with gratitude as I reflect on what is emerging in my life.

Life is always speaking to us. Yesterday I walked into a coffee shop in the North of Calgary – a coffee shop I have never gone to, at a time I would not normally visit a coffee shop. I grabbed a coffee, and sat down at a table and fate would have it, that I sat directly next to an old girlfriend that I went to high school with 13 years ago. She too has moved away from Calgary - to Italy, and would not normally have been in that coffee shop on that day at that time sitting next to me. What are the odds of that? I don’t view life as a coincidence; I view the ironic details of life as direct communication from God – or the Universe, whatever you want to call it. I believe that life is constantly communicating to us to show us that we are on the right path. Tonight, 2 of my best friends from high school came and joined my bootcamp tribe for a workout and I left with more gratitude in my heart than I knew what to do with.  

Why do some souls stick around with one another? It’s a question I can not answer, but it certainly leaves me with trust in my heart for the bigger picture.

My week has been filled with really odd, specific, synchronicities. It’s almost been too odd, like I’m in a dream. I can’t help but be flooded with gratitude for this divine communication. 

Sometimes life can be so raw, so overwhelming. Both the pain and the gratitude take our breathe away. Sometimes we can be so touched in life that we know beyond a shadow of a doubt that we are here for a reason, and that there is a divine force that rules this planet.

And it those moments, I can not help but hold my heart and try to catch my breath and just feel what it feels like to be a connected soul on this beautiful path.

Tonight I am deeply grateful for what was, and for what is to come. Gratitude – look for it, it’s always there – sometimes we just need to slow down and listen.