october journal, entry {thirteen}

I don't have much to say today... I have been surrounded by people and intense energy at the tattoo convention all weekend and tonight I am in need of some non-thinking time... some reading and a bath is in order...

But I do want to document in this journal a major milestone that has happened for me this morning...

I submitted my manuscript to a real editor today... 

I don't even know what to say -- it's a whole range of emotions; I want to cry and laugh all at once. I am scared shitless and simultaneously so fucking proud of myself. People have told me for years and years that i should write a book but I never knew what to write about... and then it hit me, and I wrote it and now I have more than 200 pages of a real manuscript that has been sent to a real editor to see and critique and ... well, edit. 

Deep breath. My work is officially out there for the 1st set of eyes (other than my own) to fully see this story... 

Here we go...

All the gratitude today -- especially to the Christian Mystic Hildegard who I continually bow down to in prayer when I feel too scared to answer the callings of my heart; she gives me so much strength.  

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