I am such an obsessive person, the amount I have been reading, the number of podcasts I have been listening too... it's outstanding lol. This has been something I have wanted to do for a long time now, having my gf's do it helped push me over the edge.
As a super type A - prone to abnormal stress - kinda human, I have to be careful when I dive into something, especially with food. If I am not careful, and I dive in too deep too fast, in only leads to enormous amounts of stress - which then skyrockets my cortisol, fatigues my adrenals, bolsters my digestion, and leads to more inflammation and deeper damage.
Coming to this place has been a journey.
2013: the removal of gluten | dairy | egg; at the time I found out the state of my gut, and knew I needed drastic measures; I also know I was not mentally stable enough to dive deep into the thing I needed (candidiasis protocol), so I worked on the allergens (that was more than enough to focus on).
from the age of 28-32: intensive therapy focusing on the exit of an abusive relationship | rage | anger | the loss of my father; this was the darkest time of my life (or so I thought until 2017 hit) where I faced depression, anxiety, self-harm, suicidal thinking... it was dark.
2016: face alcoholism, cut booze + drugs out | begin to enlarge my spiritual practice
2017: my marriage ends - potentially the most shocking, heart-shattering event of my entire life; I dig deep to find god - deeper than I have ever dug. I focus hard on sobriety and surrender. Food goes on the back burner for the 1st time in my whole life - I'm too heartbroken to eat, and the removal of booze has me eating every ounce of (healthy) sugars (still sugar) I can get my hands on. But hey, raw desserts and piles of dates is better than booze and cocaine, so I count my lucky stars and keep focusing on my work.
2018: my periods are excruciating - I'm talking 12 naproxen in a day pain. I finally cave and see a doc. We do more IgG testing, as well as a bunch of blood work, I find out that I am not only still having issues with gluten, dairy, egg, but we can now add: peanut, soy, potato, cashew, brazil nuts, pistachio. Plus my iron levels are low, B12 is almost non-existent, and my histamine levels are dangerously high.
She suspects MTHFR.
It also looks like an autoimmune response.
My gut is definitely not doing well.
At this point I am now:
- refined sugar-free
- I consume only good quality meats
- I avoid pesticides
- no sweetener | additives | food colourings
- no grains
- no booze
- no drugs
- no allergens
At this point:
I am frustrated
At this point:
I am ready.
So here I am - day 4 of keto.
Today I knocked coffee out (why not, my head is already pounding like a mother fucker, although today feels like a "normal headache" not a migraine). I feel a little better today. I feel enormously inspired. I feel grateful for food and the miracle of the human body. I feel grateful for my Gram who taught me to be a good herb loving, health-obsessed, witch. And I feel grateful that I have a Mum who has just an elaborate witch cupboard as me. So, behind the headache, there is gratitude - a lot of it. And where I was having coffee, I made a matcha with cordyceps, XCT, vanilla, coconut butter - and I talked to the plants as I crafted.
MATCHA & SHROOMS
1 scoop of Domo Pure Organic Matcha
1 tablespoon MCT oil
1 tablespoon coconut butter
1/2 tablespoon cordyceps
a dash of vanilla
blend all ingredients with hot water.